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SHE-BLOG

\n\n\nI'm lame.\n\nHow does the lameness manifest itself? I'm so glad you didn't ask! \n\nI would like to think that I have a fair amount of friends in this here online community. People who also have blogs, people who take photos and comment on flickr, and people who think my shoe addiction is completely normal. The crazy thing is, some of these people actually live right here! Locally! \n\nI would love nothing more than to be all personable and out-going and say, \"Hey! We should go get a drink!\" or \"We should go on a photo walk!\" or \"We should go shoe shopping!\" But I don't. Becasue what if I ran out of questions to ask? What if we had nothing to say to each other after 20 minutes? What if we just walked along in silence? Too many what if's for my brain to bear. So I go along thinking \"it would be cool to hang out with that person!\", but lamely decide that it's much safer to type away on my computer for hours at a time and not put myself in stuations where I might have to converse in person with another human.\n\nLAME.\n\nSome of this manifested itself at BlogHer last year. I spent all day in rooms full of women who have stuff in common with me. Women who blog, craft, take photos, and shoe shop. But all I did was watch from the sidelines. I walked right by Tracey at one point, and was too wrapped up in my own lameness to stop and say hi. This isn't to say that I didn't talk to anyone, because I did! I met some really nice people! And it was totally fine! But I left wishing I had put myself out there a little bit more.\n\nSo I'm going to try again this year. I'm attending the day two festivities at BlogHer '06, and I'll most likely be at the cocktail parties, too. I'll be armed with cards and buttons to hand out, which I'm hoping will encourage me to actually talk to a few people. So if I don't get to you first, please say hi. It would make me happy, and hey, free button!